Journal, Motivational

If I Were Free


After a long week, I am exhausted. I am happy to be at home and happy to have the opportunity to rest. Of course, one of the first things I do when I come home is to change into the comfiest clothes I can find and enjoy whatever is left of The Young & The Restless. During some commercial for the lottery today, my mind began to wander. What would I do if I won $50 000 000.00? What would winning the lottery change?

I might as well come out and say, I’m not lucky. I don’t gamble. It’s no fun for me. But, that is ok because, I don’t need to be lucky; I’m blessed, yes! (Nikki Minaj reference, anyone?) But, it’s fun to imagine a life that can be polar opposite to your own. It’s fun to have dreams beyond your wildest imagination. So, I wonder what would change?

There would be pros and there would be cons. I’ve got to admit – mostly pros. Save for the messages from strangers reaching out to me for money; save for the lack of education on how to properly pay tax on the winnings, invest and keep savings & save for helping friends and family, maybe I wouldn’t know what to do with all the money. I would pay off my debts. I would buy myself the things I always wanted but could never afford. I would travel the world (First Stop INDIA – maybe a little sooner than I already have planned). I would contribute to causes that I really truly feel are important. Maybe, I would never work again.

I began to really think about my goals – monetarily and more. If money were not an object, what could I not be withheld from? If sickness were not an object, what more could I do? What are all these things to me? Obstacles? Challenges? Neither. I realized that these are the things I am allowing to keep me captive.

If I feel strained after each work day, I am letting my job  strain me. If I feel sick, I am letting my body break down. If I can’t travel, it’s because I haven’t prioritized it. If I can’t pay my debts, it’s because I have not budgeted. In a world of consumerism, in a world where society sets standards beyond our reach, in a world where The American Dream is becoming a standard we must follow to be accepted into society, how can we really know what we want, or what we have been conditioned to want?

A house, a car, a dog, a family, a great career, a cottage, a boat, a pool… luxury items to some, assets to others. How can we free our minds? How can we become our true selves? I hadn’t really figured it all out when I started to write this. In fact, I’m still only 24 years old, what do I know, really? But, I think I figured something out.

The definition of ‘freedom’ is: the state of not being imprisoned or enslaved. A ‘state’ is defined as: the particular condition that someone or something is in at a specific time. (Definitions by Google). So, there is a time and there is a condition we must be in to free ourselves. I believe it’s a mental choice to choose happiness. To be content with where we are would be what would free us.

It brings to mind the one person who said it best, Bob Marley.

“Emancipate yourself from mental slavery,
None but our self can free our minds.
Have no fear for atomic energy,
‘Cause none of them can stop the time.”

There are age old adages that say that money cannot buy happiness. They say that money cannot buy them love. I am starting to understand that they mean that money does not set you free. You’re not free to be you. You’re not free from sickness, you’re not free from falling.

If I were free, if I were happy that I am where I am, God could finally do His work in my life. If I were not tied down by the thrills and delights of the world, I could be thrilled and delighted in myself. If I were free, I wouldn’t need a car or a house or a white picket fence, all I would feel is happiness. All I would feel is love. If I were free $50 000 000.00 would mean nothing.

Maybe, I’m only ranting now. All that is left to say is that the best things in life do not cost you money. The best things in life are free.

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