Departures and arrivals. Happy tears and sad tears. Butterflies and that amazing feeling of relief.
I’ll take a moment to say one thing before I delve into the first foot of my adventure. This is going to be a bumpy ride. I am filled with mixed emotions. I am filled with a million ideas. I want to spit them all out right at once and so I don’t even know if what I am going to say will be fully linear or make sense. I might be cut off by time restrictions and my posts may not be finalized. I will not edit. There might be 1000 grammatical or spelling errors. Like all my other posts, the things I am going to say will be raw and unaltered moments. Some may be spiritual. Some may be political. Some might be silly or make no sense. Don’t be offended if you don’t agree. Our differences are what make up our individualities.
I’ve been counting down to the day that I finally go to a place I’ve been longing to go to. A place my mother longed to always take me. A place where so much history and family awaits my arrival. It’s here! It’s finally here, and I am ecstatic.
As I sit here in Pierre Elliott Trudeau International Airport in Montreal, Canada, I am filled with so many feelings I wasn’t sure I would have. This moment is more bittersweet than I ever could have imagined. I’ve travelled before. I’ve travelled alone before. There’s something different this time. It’s my heart.
From the moment I kissed my sweet little Bella a, “see-you-later-kiss,” it finally hit me. There is so much in Canada that I love. Those are words I never thought I would spit out. I’ve learned that this IS home. This is where I live. It’s not the city that I love. It’s not the boring office buildings. It’s not the city that shuts down before 2am. It’s my family.
It is family that makes my heart beat. Family is what drives my decisions. Family is why I have stayed in Ottawa. Family is why I am going to India. Family is everything to me.
I had the most amazing day with my sister and my brother. I kissed my Papa one last time and even smiled at that yucky smell of cigrettes he carries on him and he walked away with 3 bundles of joy. Bella, Sophie and Molly. 3 girls I will have in my mond this whole trip. Delia and O’Malley showed their distaste for my departure by not letting me give them one last kiss. Of course, pets will be pets and I was not offended. After a nervous drive to Montreal complete with a stalker car that made David, Amy and I exit the highway prematurely into the city that Jack Layton was born, we finally made it safe to Montreal.
From my previous travels to the fine city of Montreal, Quebec, I remembered a little place called Miami Deli with most yummy foods. It was like Cuba all over again. With Pasta and Club Sammiches. Amy David and I feasted to our bellies discontent and headerd to Aloft Hotel. A beautiful Starwood hotel that blew our minds. After check-in we endeavoured to find a pharmacy for hair bleach. We travelled in circles several times with bags under our eyes when suddenly, like a glowing angel, PharmaPrix appeared in front of us. Upon our return the the hotel, we cracked a beer to cheers and died my hair a more glowing PURPLE and fell asleep.
This morning after driving in a few more circles, we found an eggcellent place for breakie. We enjoyed our meal with the bittersweet notion that this was my last in Canada. Thank you Amy and David for a most amazing adventure of Epic proportions. I can’t wait to see you again on New Year’s Eve!!!!
I lost control of my breath as I hugged my amazing brother. A hug so tight I didn’t want to let go. My sister walked me to security. My hands shook uncontrollably. I seemed unprepared and about ready to throw up. I hugged my sister. I wondered if wishing her way passed security would mean I could pack her in my carry on and continue with her by my side.
I love my family.
Now, I’m on my way to India! WOW! I’ll be surrounded with the love of the family I’ve been longing to reunite with. Many family members I have yet to meet. Weddings and birthdays await! I can’t wait to share all those moments with you all. It’s going to be incredible! I can feel it in my bones.
Now – If I could just find a swimsuit somewhere….
Find a phone with endless battery life.
Find the right words to explain just how exciting this is.
I’m in love with the feelings I feel right now. This is love. This is family. This is my life. It’s ALL happening!